Dorothy Lou Knott

mom i miss you very much .i cant evan tell you how much i love you.mommy iv been sitting here  holding your bear and i,ll show you it mom i love  you much love you so much BYE

I was sitting here thinking about how much I missed U on my B-Day. I remember how much U loved getting cakes on all our B-DAY's. Those along with every holiday were special to U and U always tried to make a big deal out of each and every special day. Even day's that weren't a special day U made them that way by fixing special meals or letting the kids make something special to eat like the last day U spent with them and me. We made food for me to take to the dinner I was taking Little John to that night. Then there was the chocolate covered bananas the kids helped make. I will never forget that day because U made it special. At least now I can think about those times and smileand remember how much they ment to U and how much fun they were for all of us. Honey I loveand miss U more and more each and every day that passes. Mywill never heal but thehappy times we shared will make it easier. Ieveryday and miss u my special Angel. Keep watching over us all. This is sent to U with a  and the dreams of being with U when God decides to take me to be with U.

It has been 14 months ago today that we layed you to rest.I still miss you as much today as i did then.The pain is still here but it is getting a little better.Now i think about all the good times we had together and that helps ease the pain a little bit.The other day i remembered the time you helped me put up the dog run and how you dug all the post holes.That was really cool.Sometimes i think i can still hear you saying I love you Daddy.Honey i really miss you alot and will never forget you.

My heart is breaking today more than any other because it was 1 year ago today we all gathered around your grave to send you to Heaven to be the Angel you always were here on Earth. Honey I will never forget how I felt when we had to leave you there. It hurt so much knowing that it was really true and I would never see your smile or hear you say Mommy I love you ever again. I remember all the great times we all shared with you, Kenny, and The kids. I will never let them forget you. You were the light of our lives. Now you are up ther with your wimgs and a golden Halo watching over us. Continue to watch and we will try to be strong and help Kenny with the Kids. I love and miss you more and more every day.

Love you now , forever, and always. Never forgotten and always in our hearts  and on our minds.

One year ago today I was sitting in a truck stop drinking coffee and I got that one phone call no parent ever wants to get. It was Burt telling me that there was an accident and you was gone. At first I did not belieave him so I called home and your mother answered the phone crying and I then knew it was true. I will never forget that day my whole life came crashing down around me. I don't remember to much about that day except when I got home your mother met me at the door crying I wrapped my arms around her and started crying to. We just held each other for a while. The days that followed are just a blur all I remember is the pain and emptiness I felt inside me. And now one year later it's all coming back. I miss you so much Baby Girl. But in my heart I know you are in a better place now and you are watching over all of us down here. I know that some day we will be together again so until that day comes please keep watching over all of us and know this I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH.

                                     LOVE YA BABY GIRL

Honey my heart is still breaking. One year ago today was the last time I got to tell you how much I love you. I was headed out the door to a meeting and you said Mom wait a minute. I turned around and said what do you need. You looked at me and said Mom I really, really, really love you. I said I know and I love you too. You said I really mean it Mom I love you. Little did I know that would be the last time we would tell each other we loved you. I will never forget that day as long as I live. We spend the whole day rogether with the kids shopping and then cooking. We had a lot of fun. You wanted me to go to Bingo and I told you I couldn't because I promised Little John I would take him to the meeting in Findlay. I have wished a million times I could turn back the hands of time that I stayed home and went with you. Maybe you would be here with us now.

The kids are gettimg so big and they miss you so much. When they come over on the weekends I put Allison on my lap at the computer and she points to your picture and says my mommy.  Chris ask me ever once in a while where you are. I tell him you are an Angel in Heaven watching over all of us. Kate, Bub, Hope and Angel miss you and I think they sort of understand that you are in Heaven and are their Guardian Angel watching over them.

I miss you and will always love you Baby Girl. Know that you are in my heart and my thoughts every minute of every day. I'll never forget your beaurifil smile.

 

LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!!!

Love you Honey. Today is your Birthday and you would have been 29. I have been thinking about the day you were born and how purfect you were.You were so tiny and pretty. Harold and Shirl thought you were so little and wanted you home right then. We couldn't get them to understand that you had to stay in the hospital for a couple days. You were Daddy's little girl from the moment you were born and my little Angel. I look up toward Heaven and wonder if you are looking down at me at the same time. Your name means you are a gift from God and that was and still is true. I will always remember the day you were born and always love you and miss you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL GIRL!!!

 I remember alot of birthdays with you sissy. Like the time you tore up my bathroom. I miss you sissy.

11 months today since I talked to u-never thought i'd go 11 days much less 11 months! i hope i will b with u soon cant imagine cont this hell to much longer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but its my own self imposed hell cause i shoulda been with u then we would still b together being dead would b better than being with out u!

Merry Christmas Honey. We all missed you being here and cooking Christmas dinner. It just wasn't the same without you. The kids all came over and spent the night last night. I just keep thinking about last year and how much fun we had shopping for the kids for Christmas and watching them open everything. I know you were watching from above. I miss snd love you so much. I just wonder if the hurt will ever go away!!!!!

Today is J.J.'s B-day and we can't be with him either. We know that you are watching over him and Gracie for us. I miss you 3 so very much and wish you were all back home with us.

You were always the one who made a big deal out of birthday's for the kids and they will never forget them. Bub's birthday is in two days and he wanWt's a semi truck. They aren't having a party until Christmas Eve and then we are going to celebrate his and Angel's too. I wish you were going to be here because it isn't going to be the same without you and the big party you always had for them. I love you and miss you more as each day goes by. They say that it get's easier as time passes. I'm here to tell everyone they are WRONG!!!!! It hurts more now than it did the day you left us. Keep watching over all of us from above and I will see you again when God is ready for me to come home with you. LOVE YOU YESTERDAY, TODAY, AND FOREVER!!!!!!!!

There isn't a day that goes by, that I don't think of you in some way. Todays memory arrived when I happened by the trailer you guys used to live in at highland. Yesterdays memory was Jolly's, I was eating a hotdog and imagined you eating chicken sandwiches. You will be in my mind and heart forever. Even though we all miss you here on earth, it gives me great relief and happiness knowing you are watching out for us as one of God's angels. Love you

Hey Baby girl today my birthday and it sucks without you here,and it also the day we buried you 10 months ago.that make it really hard for me.But I know you watching over me today.

It's been 10 months today since you left us.I still think of you every day.Sissy and Big Brother had cake for my 17 Years sober and got me a real nice coin.The pain of loosing you is still there but getting a little better.

well baby girl here it is another year clean and sober.wish you was here to help me celebrate it.last night was rough did not sleep very good because I knew I would not get my 12:01am call from you I am realy going to miss that.but don't worry your sissy made the call at 12:05am and big brother did to at 12:28am.so they are filling in for you now.and I am sure they got something planned for today.

I am taking a break from homework and wanted to share memories of Thanksgiving with you. It wasn't the same without you helping me cook for everyone. Shirl wanted to do the pie's and managed to burn the Apple pie. But that is okay. Kenny brought Allison over and she stayed overnight. The rest of the kids were in New London at Matt's. I sure missed everyone not being here. First it was J.J. and Gracie and now you. My heart can't take losing anyone else. It is broke into so many pieces now that I don't think it will ever mend.

We had the S.O.S. Thanksgiving at Shirley and Freebird's and it was great. Shirl fixed Lazanya and it was good. I wished I could trade places with you and you could be here with the kids. Christmas is going to be here and it is our first without you. I cry everyday just thinking about it. I know that I will get through it for the kids. I have to be here for them now. I sure miss them and you and Kenny living here. It is pretty lonsome without all of you.

I will write more next time, need to get back to homework. Love and miss you more than ever.

Her it is almost turkey day and I am tinking about last year when you, Skirl and I went shopping for dinner. We had so much fun that day. We had even more fun fixing everything and then eating it. My heart is still breaking without you here to help with dinner. You were a great cook and loved to cook big meals for everyone. I am hoping that the kids can come over for at least part of the day. Honey you will be missed so much this turkey day. Smile down on us as we remember you. Love you always.

Baby girl it's been nine months now since you left us.I still remember that day I got the phone call telling me you went home to be with the Lord.I still cry on this day when i remember that call.It brings back all the pain.But then I start remembering all the fun we had together and that helps ease the pain in my heart.Just like when I was in so much pain at the retreat in May and you came to me in a vision reaching your hand out to me and you said daddy I am ok now and you will be to some day.The holidays are coming up soon and it won't be easy getting thru them with out you.But I am sure I will get thru them just like I did the Halloween dance.I cryed there to but then I started remembering all the times when you was there and I knew you was there in spirit and that helped.So please be with us in spirit and help us remember all the good times we had together.With all my love.Daddy

Honey I was just sitting here playing a game on pogo and remembering how we would play and see who could get the highest score. Your Dad is still playing ZUMA and trying to beat your high score. I know I'll never beat it. I haven't been to Bingo sence you left us. It just wouldn't be the same. Maybe some day I will get Heather, Sissy, Kathy and Aunt Julie and all go to BINGO AND PLAY ONE FOR YOU. I haven't watched Days either. Yhere are just some things that I don't want to do anymore without you.

It's almost Thanksgiving and I remember last year at this time You, Me and Sissy went to Wal-Mart and got everything for Thanksgiving Dinner. Sissy took a picture of you and me with my head on your shoulder. I wish I could put my head on your and tell you how much I love you.

I am having a really hard time here lately with the holliday's comming knowing that you, J.J. and Gracie aren't going to be here with us. I miss you all so much. Everyone say's it will get easier as time goes on. I don't believe that. It is getting harder for me. It hurts so much. It seems like everything reminds me of you, J.J. and Gracie. When I hear the song MY WISH it reminds me of when it came out and we were in the car and you said that was your song for J.J. and Gracie. Well now it is my song for them and I remember that day in the car with you and the kids.I remember how much you loved to cook. It makes me happy because we sure had a lot of fun in the kitchen. Like the last day I spent with you and the kids all here. We went to the store and got all the stuff to make chocolate covered bananas and other stuff with the kids. I don't think they willever forget either. We had alot of fun. I'll never forget you telling me you love me that day when I was leaving to go to a meeting. You don't know how much I wished I would have stayed home with you. I would give anything to have that day back!!!!

I love you and will never forget the fun we had together. We were more than mother and daughter. We were best friends, buddies and pals. Watch over all of us from up there in Heaven.

Hi there my little I 6 days it will be nine months sence you left us. The kids went Trick or treating the other night with Kenny and Shannon. I didn't go. Iwasn't feeling good and just kept thinking about last year when we went with the kids. You and I took turns holding Allison along with Shirl helping. The three of us had alot of fun with the kids that night and I will never forget it. Sometimes it is so hard to make it through a day without you here. I miss you so much. I took pumkins out to you and Allen for Halloween. They were so cute. I sit here sometimes and wonder if yoou have met everyone up there and wonder if you are all talking about old times and laughing about the good times. Everyone here misses all of you and know that you are all in our hearts and minds all the time. I will write again soon. LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!!!!

Well honey we went to our retreat this past weekend and Sis and Harold went with us. It was all so Gracie's B-Day and I miss you both so much. I know your spirit was with us all week end. I could feel you there. It is a special place and I am so happy that you will be there with us every time we go there. Keep watching over us all from above. Know that you are in our hearts and minds all the time. Love you now more than ever. I miss you being here cooking with me all the time.

ITS ALOST BEEN A YR SINCE U LEFT US AND I KNOW UR WATCHING OVER US ALL. I WAS OUT TO SEE YA THE OTHER DAY WITH JACKIE AND I BROKE DOWN. I MISS WATCHING UR KIDS WHILE U GO TO BINGO. YOU AND I HAVE HAD ALOT OF MEMORIES TOGETHER! WEALL MISS YOU AND LOVE U DORKY!!

Honey it has been 8 months today sence U left us and I am still heartbroken and I don't think it will ever mend. I am making candles and thinking about when we were making them and selling them. We had so much fun doing them. Harold has taken your place and we are making them for that retreat that I went to. your Dad got to go to it in May and noww Harold and Shirley are going with us next week. U will not be there in body but I know that U will be there with us in Spirit. Love U and miss U more now than ever. Watch over all of us.

Well here we are 8 months now since you passed away.It still ain't easy.SOS halloween dance coming up in 3 weeks.that going to be real hard being there without you.i still remember all the the times you went with me and mom and all the fun we had three.it just won't be the same this year with out you being there.I really miss you baby girl.